Soapbox

I hate to get all down-in-the-dumps but right now I just need to for a brief moment.

I'm tired of either being at work all day or at home doing nothing. If I was at home being able to craft, or plan, or have people over it'd be different. Now I know this kinda conflicts with my desire of being a stay-at-home wife/mother. But if you think about it, if I was able to be home all the time, I could actually DO some of the things I keep putting on a list "that I'll do later". But right now all I've been able to do is a little bit of this and that.

Plus I really want a baby....I know. People think I'm crazy cuz we just got married in December. But really, I'll be 23 this year, and I've been wanting a child for a long time. I love my little Sunbeams and my kinders, but I want my own.

I also want some friends. Some real, flesh and blood friends. Married or single doesn't matter really, I just want a friend...(I'm sorry but books and fictional characters only get me so far.) I get lonely while Andrew is out, and I miss the social interaction and getting close to someone. I miss knowing that I have someone I can count on. I also fear rejection, so I'm not one to throw myself out there in the world. Which I know you basically have to do now in this world to meet anyone.

So I will now jump off my soapbox, and continue with some other happier posts later on.