want a baby. Really bad........

we want to start our family. I get discouraged on occasion, and it's just hard when I know so many people that didn't mean to, or want to get pregnant and have.

And then there's me. I want to be a mother sooo bad. And it's difficult when I feel blocked, almost like trpping at the finish line. Yeah I know, I know, "live your life together before you bring kids in". Well, we don't believe in that. We've also been together for a long time and we want a child.

I'll admit that I get jealous, but at least I can hold other babies. I'm just ready to have my own little bundle of joy......know what I mean?

Oh well.....I know it'll happen in God's time, not mine, but still...... sooner is better than later......and I want one

Ok so I know everyone will do a post about their wonderful mom, and I am too ;)

I love my mom so much! She has always been right there for me no matter what. I often get told that I look like her. And I'm totally ok with that. I mean look at how gorgeous she is!

 Look at that babe!

I love the dress choice mama hahahaha ;)

And now that she's a mom, she's still as beautiful as ever ;)

I mean, HELLO! She's such an amazing person to me and she makes my life so much easier! She is there to catch my tears from every heartbreak, there to laugh at every good time, there for me when I need strength, there as my support and rock through everything, she's the first one I call for everything Disney-related (we're both obsessed).

She's my best friend (my husband is too don't worry) and I'm so glad we get 2 days a year to officially celebrate her, but truly everyday I'm so happy she's my mom ;)

Love you mom! Happy Mother's Day!

Ok so this week has been really really rough. I still hadn't heard whether I had a job at the school next year, my husband's finals were stressing both of us out, and then to top the cake: my Disney Store is closing within 60 days........I can't even describe how devastated I am. When they said the words: "The company has chosen to shut this store down" my tears just would not stop. (which was really not good cuz I had an interview that day too) Now some of you might think this is a little overboard but let me explain why this sucks.

My Disney Store cast is my family. We have been together for over 4 years now (some of them have been there longer) and we are super close. What kills me even more is that the company didn't give us any place to go. There's a new store opening in a couple weeks and they filled all those positions before they closed us down. So literally, we have nowhere to go. Including my managers. Like I said, it's been really rough.

My wonderful loving husband has caught many a tear from me this past few days. He has told me not to worry, that we'll be fine. I just hope we really are, cuz Disney was supposed to help us pay our bills over the summer, but now obviously we need to figure something else out. I've applied to a ton of places for anything and only had one bite. But even that bite meant 6 other applicants for one position. NO idea if I'll get that one.

I'm sad that Mickey will no longer be my boss.... that my "family" will be separated, but I refuse to lose them forever. Cyndi has volunteered to be a "Fairy Godmother" to my future children, Laura is gonna introduce them to Supernatural (she's the resident expert) and we will find ways to get together.

I love them all so much and they have touched my life forever and always ;)

And we will get through this. We'll stand together as they close the doors to our store, to that chapter of our lives and as we move on to another one ;)

I don't know how many of you know exactly what today is, but I will tell you all now!

May the Fourth be with you!

I know. SOOO geeky but I do love me some old-school Star Wars ;) (not a fan of the newer ones) So to commemorate this holiday, here are some of MY personal favorite quotes:

"Why you stuck-up, half-witted, scruffy-looking Nerf herder!"

"Someone get this walking carpet out of my way"

"I find your lack of faith disturbing"

"I want to come with you to Alderaan. There's nothing for me here now. 
I want to learn the ways of the Force and become a Jedi like my father."

"That's great kid, don't get cocky!"

"C-3PO: Sir, the possibility of successfully navigating an asteroid field is approximately 3,720 to 1.!
Han Solo: Never tell me the odds."

"Do or do not. There is no try."

"Obi-Wan has taught you well."

"I love you.
- I know."

So there's a few ;) 
Hope you all have a great May Fourth!! ;)

Ok so I have a talented friend out in South Africa named Chantelle.

She's a brilliant artist and just plain hilarious! When I worked at Disneyland, she drew a picture of me based on a picture I took at Disneyland:

And her rendition:

Isn't it awesome!? I love it!

So as Andrew and I were getting ready to get married, I asked Chantelle if she would be willing to do a drawing of us that we could put up in our house. She was more than happy to do it! This is the picture I gave her:

We took this at my birthday dinner. I told her that my hair was shorter now but that was the only difference, and so here's the finished product:

I absolutely love it! I'm gonna print it out on something nice and hang it up! I love displaying things from my friends in my home! Of course I'll post picutres later of it hanging up ;)

Oh and check out Chantelle's DevianArt page! It's amazing and I love her work!

Thank you so much C!